2022 Wrap Up

This year I was so lucky - I was able to travel a bunch, I celebrated so much love, and I got to do these things with people who will forever hold a special place in my heart.

However, when I started to gather these clips from my year and put this video together, I felt a prick of sadness. This year was hard for me mentally. I constantly felt like I was doing something wrong. I was too much or not enough; too sexy or too PG-13; too awkward or too outgoing; I spent too much time on things I care about that other people think are small, easy to let go of, instead of seeing more of the world, staying out every night, or living somewhere new and different.

Sometimes, I felt like I was doing whatever I could to just hold on.

Those negative thoughts and feelings inflitrated my head and heart, tainting some of these memories with the feeling that, in those moments, I wasn't as "there" as I could have been.

That being said, now that I've completed this 2022 video and put it on YouTube and watched it a billion times and have come to terms with the fact that this was a hard year, it was a really good year. A year that was meant for growth.

I learned how I like to spend my time and money. I learned who I want to trust with different parts of myself. I learned to ask for help. I learned how to hold a baby. I learned (and am still learning) to let go of a grudge. I learned that starting over, scratching the idea of what I thought would be, can lead to something more beautiful and more meaningful than what I'd originally intended.

In 2022, I was reminded that my energy is precious. There is no space for relationships that I cannot grow from, work that is not meaningful, and activities that don't inspire me.

I'm moving into 2023 more prepared and excited, knowing more about myself than ever before.

Here's to all that happened 2022, and all that's yet to come! 🥂